For What Its Worth

The minutes tick by and turn into weeks months and years. I talk to more people and see more things and watch more movies. Still I wonder when my time is. In that all out pursuit for the girl of my dreams. I've stumbled so many times along the way, and never quite made it. I go through my daily routine and try not to think about it, yet it still brews inside me. I think about when it will come. When I'll find the one I adore. To spend my days and nights with. To go on road trips or accompany me to family functions. The one I get butterflies about. I think of all the ones before that have been left behind. I envy those around me that have what I long for. I tell myself it will all come in time, but some days I'm not so sure. As I start to put myself back on a straight track and have a fresh start, I can't help but add that into my list of to do's. I know its out there - it has to be. I've said over and over I'm stuck in a monotonous routine of life. I want to break free of it and change my ways and have something to wake up to. I want someone to be there by my side when I need it. Someone who makes me smile and always wants to hear my voice. Someone to talk about with to my family and friends. To make me smile at the thought. Someone to come home too and drink wine with. Someone to make me feel something special. Everyday I go about my business and I'm overwhelmed by those that have beaten me to it. I think about where they are and what they do and can't help but notice the smiles on their faces. I haven't been out in ages. There have been no present opportunities to do so with anyone for any reason. I miss those days. The quiet nights on a Village sidewalk with some good wine and the sounds around us. The long walks in the park with the snow falling on our heads. Where did the time go? It seems like I had it all planned out and just never pulled through. I leave my phone at the ready and my porch light is always on. I wait for my doorbell to ring or to hear a voice that rings in my ears. I hope that someone is sitting and waiting just the same, and our paths will cross before its too late. As it is I sit and ponder, as I usually do, and hope for the best.

"You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."