Like magic she somehow managed to get thrown back into my head. I don't know if it was the long, lonely rides home or just the downtime that I had no other way to avoid. The flashbacks blew through all at once like a tornado. I couldn't shake them no matter how hard I tried. And here I thought I had flushed it all out of my system and then I realized I was totally wrong. Nestled away in the back of my head - there she was - waiting for the right moment to pop out again. It blasted me all at once and thrust me back to where I was stuck months ago - waiting and wondering. Only this time I couldn't act on it. I thought about how close I was .. how close we were. I wondered, for a fraction of time, how it all tragically slipped into nothing. Disappeared like it was never there. A short story I read in a waiting room. A movie trailer. A TV show. Over and done with no turning back. Yet here I'm pulled into my puddle again and have to struggle to swim free and lift myself from the frustration. Its ultimately a lost cause but I trudge on, knowing that somehow I'll pull through, as always.
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