Another Day Another Ache

I think I watched The Notebook one too many times at work tonight. I should just stop all together because when I to the sentimental feelings just flow through me nonstop. Another learning experience to add to my books tonight. It was funny too because for once when I decided I was going to walk, I walked. I didn't think twice. I had a point to make and it was easier than in the past. I thought about doing something stupid and admitting to stupid mistakes I didn't even make, but I think I did the right think and diffused the situation in the easiest way possible. Things change so quickly and easily I am still amazed at times. Even in the plainest form beauty flows sweet. So comfortable yet not at the same time. When apart, the thoughts in my head glorify what truly isn't there. The love and affection seems to be felt from a distance - but in reality there is none - or not enough at least. I try to be smart but sometimes my gut isn't. I'm down with karma but I also like to think for myself. I listen to the opinions of my friends but at the same time I'll do as I please. The only true way to find out the answers to your questions is experience. I've found out many things for myself and many of those times the hard way. I sit and wait for the phone to ring - but then I think that maybe I'm waiting for it not to ring. I'm not sure what the outcome will be, but I think either way is okay with me. My pursuit seems endless at times. I think I try to make something out of what truly isn't there. It seems a light task but turns out to be to difficult to pursue. I rarely think of the future. I dream of what I want but don't try to hard to predict my own outcome. I wish there was an easier way to go about it all - like all of us had screeners. We could sit and wait until someone passed enough of our own predescribed tests to move on to the next level. I don't think I wasted my time. It was my time to give and did with it what I wanted. I don't think that I'd take it back either. Sure I may look back and think I was stupid, but thats how we learn isn't it? We can't make all the right decisions 100% of the time so it's good to screw up once in a while. No one got hurt and nothing was lost. Tomorrow is another sunny day. I'll run my routine and keep hoping that something comes my way.

People don't care how much you know, until they know how much you care.
- unknown