I've been constantly thinking of the past as of late - relationships and experiences - and I've been dwelling rather than moving forward. I met someone this past week who's company I enjoy immensely. I haven't been out with anyone "fun" in quite some time - and it feels incredible to be completely comfortable and constantly smiling when you're with someone. My mind has been taken off many of my worries and released the past. I've built up my expectations and I feel I know better now what to look for and I feel that I am partly there. I cannot explain the feeling of being free and happy nonstop. The extreme opposite end of the scale of worry I know all too well. The happiness has come to me and I'm sure it will keep a smile on my face for quite some time. I tread more careful than before and still things progress on par. Smiling feels good. Waking up in the morning wanting to start the day rather than dreading it is a lifted load.
You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.
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I didnt know I had to create my own blog just to type my thoughts....but so it goes....
"Always hold your happiness in your own hands"-a quote told to me in high school and that till this day has stuck with me. It is one I even use in therapy quite often. Important in many ways, including most significantly that we cannot rely on any other person to be our happiness, because then it can all too easily be taken away. A risky proposition to put all of that on another human being....and what responsibility for that other person!
I believe that we spend time looking at the past because we are too terrified to move forward, because the idea of something different is just too overwhelming....so staying in the past allows us to stay right where we are, even if it is crappy. At least it is known and we find some safety there. It is when we look forward, when we take the risk, and believe there is something more than what we have always known....that is when I believe real, life changing, "oh my God how freakin awesome is this" moments happen.
To find someone who makes you see the world in a whole different light, that is definately happiness. And if we are careful enough, if we watch where we are going, and make sure that we listen to that little voice within our souls....maybe the something we have been searching for becomes our very own reality.....
I think you are dead on. I should have clarified a bit. I think it is definitely dangerous to soley rely on someone as your "happiness" - but for them to be your happiness is another thing. There comes a point when past relationships have to be put aside and risks need to be taken. Everytime we enter something new we tread more carefully than the last and the slow progression helps us to see more of the goal. Just like you said - one person can make you see the world in a different light. They can take you to new places or make you a new person. They can relieve your worries and make you at ease. As long as we tread lightly, a new road is not always a bad road ..
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